Friday, July 16, 2010

just a week ago....




Just a week ago I woke up feeling a little funny. Just a week ago I was still pregnant. Just a week ago my heart had no idea how much bigger, fuller & amazed it would feel....

Sawyer Richard just turned 1...week that is and in some ways that seems impossible but mostly I just can't remember a time I didn't know his sweet face, pointy ears, deliciously soft skin & tiny little body. He's finally here and MORE than worth the wait for sure! It was such a whirlwind last Saturday. It's hard to even believe it happened with how fast it went, but here we are at home for a few days already when my "plan" had been to be released from the hospital today. With my kids, God has always had a plan of his own, which has always worked out just the way it should be, isn't it great to know that what we love most are in the best hands possible!??!!

I could make this a horribly long post and fill you in on every detail but I will try and give you just the cliff notes. When I woke up last Saturday I was feeling miserable and hadn't felt Sawyer move really all night. I decided to get in the shower and that's when the contractions started. Whew...I wasn't expecting to go into labor at all so it was surly a surprise, and painful at that:)! So we packed up best we could and hopped in to the car for the typical "movie style" woman in labor ride where I was screaming at Ryan that it hurt and begging him to drive faster. He started to time my contractions and when he said 45 seconds I told him to just stop...and my nerves really set in.

Thankfully they were ready for us at the hospital, got us checked in and me checked out in no time and I think that they knew that both baby & I weren't doing so well. It took forever to even find his heartbeat and when they did it wasn't so good. Before we had time to think I was being wheeled into the operating room and even my request to see my mom real quick was shut down so they could hurry and roll me out the door. He was out and in the NICU within 1 and a half hours of getting to Edwards. The staff was awesome and never made us feel like there was an emergency, they just acted fast and got him out. He wasn't breathing when he did get pulled out so they resuscitated him and sent him straight to NICU and I got finished with surgery. I got to see him really quick as I was rolled down to recovery. He was a little champ and recovered amazingly. The NICU doc told us that most babies who come out in his condition are sick for a very long time, but she thought Sawyer would be fine in just a few days. We were overwhelmed with awesome staff at the hospital who also commented on how glad they were that I came in when I did and how happy they were to hear about how well our kiddo was doing. What a blessing that he is here and safe and all is well. I can't believe God's grace in the situation and am overflowing with thankfulness for his hand in it all.


We are now safe and sound and tucked in at home as a family of 4. I gotta say, I love it! It seems like this is how it should be. There are for sure some ups and downs coming our way, but I am just feeling really positive (& tired) but positive. Griffin is doing well...this is going to be an adjustment for sure, but he is doing as to be expected! He loves his little "Brudder"...there is no doubt about that and frequently asks to hold "his baby"!
Griffin so excited for "my baby" to be home and hold him!

Daddy lovin'

My husband is a little gem. What in the world would I do without him??!!?? He has been my biggest encourager, takes Griffin and gives him extra loving, hugs me at just the right time, washes my pump stuff, cleans and puts things away, gets up to help me in the night if I need it....can I list out more??!! He is seriously an angel and I love him so much. So blessed by his willingness to serve us all as we make this transition.

all my boys...am I so lucky??!!

I think every new mom can relate to the crazy love that starts pumping through you when your baby is finally with you. I can't really explain how much in love I am with this little boy, I could watch him sleep for hours and even when I am dead tired in the night I hate to put him back in bed. I want to enjoy and remember each precious moment, as they are too fleeting already! How amazing is it that God saw fit for us to be an intimate part of this whole process, we all just feel so blessed! I could go on for hours about how much I love this little 8 pound ball of sweetness but I would rather go wrap him up in my arms so I better head out. I can't believe that my pregnancy is already over...I said I was a little sad about that to Ry, and I got laughed at since I was not a super happy camper these last few weeks:)! WHAT A WEEK it has been!! I ended up making this a long post without meaning to, so sorry....thanks for bearing through my gushing:)...and here's just a tiny preview of some pics that the hospital photographer took...I love them!!


4 comments:

Unknown said...

oh man, this bottom picture is just too much! he looks like a perfect little doll...can't wait to smooch him!

Unknown said...

this makes my heart so happy!
love you so so much!

Kimberly said...

wow abs. so eloquent. thanks for the details. i like imagining what the day was like for you. so crazy. love you lots and can't wait to meet him.

Anne said...

Looking forward to seeing all of you in 4 weeks.