Adjustments and Perspective at 1 Month

It's hard to believe that it's been over a month since sweet Crozi Lu has been with us.  It feels like yesterday and forever ago all in the same breath.  A few things are for sure though, we can't imagine life with out her and also our life will never be the same.

We love our baby and we love all the joy, tiny pink outfits, sweet baby coos and snuggles, the way it makes Beanie constantly say...search for...and try to snuggle his "bay bay" and just being the 5 of us.  We feel like a complete family and that is blissful.

In the last month we have been absolutely wrapped in love from friends and family!  We are so very blessed, from the congrats on facebook to the meals lovingly prepared and dropped off, we feel very taken care of and we are so appreciative (please know that even if you may not yet have received a thank you note or birth announcement, I am working on them, slowly but surely:)!!)  God has really taken care of us through "our people" and we are humbled at the love in our lives!

Muffins from the sweet Auntie Gayle Bailin...aren't they so cute!!

Please don't get me wrong, we are loving our baby and absolutely over the moon for our new life BUT there has been a lot of adjusting in the last month too...  

These two are taking it really well all things considered.  Here's a shot of them snoozing in Beanie's crib we took the other night.  It's their newest scheme, G sneaks out of his room into beans and they sit in the crib and play until they fall asleep.  We were so surprised the first time we walked in and found them both asleep in here.  It's pretty cute actually (but don't tell them we think so) ha ha!  We have had a few ups and downs with the boys but mostly nothing but love (up close and personal love) for their sister.

It's also been a lot of adjusting for Ry and I.  We fall into bed exhausted every night, barely getting a goodnight out most nights.  In the last month we have had a baby, got an offer on our home but decided to stay here for another year or so, had to say good bye to our sweet doggie Maci & adjust to our new life where we are playing zone defense on our kids instead of man to man...and speaking of basketball, the Bulls lost in the first round which has been a huge bummer to us all since we had gotten into the habit of watching the games together as a family.  Beanie excitedly points to the TV and yells ba ball and Go Bullllllll and Griffin has a pre game and during game outfit he changed into for every game.  We had so much fun having a "family interest" and Griffin still asks every night if the Bulls are playing...it's going to be a long off season:)!  

In regards to Maci, we loved having you as a part of our family for the last 7 years.  We got her like 2 weeks after our wedding so she was a founding member of the family.  Just looking at this picture of her brings tears to my eyes trying to fathom that she isn't around anymore but with her condition (she was very sick with skin issues that we couldn't get pinned down) it was the best thing for her and us.  I think and pray for her daily and miss her little (huge) ears, wiggly nose & polka dots.  The stories we have about you Maci will be told for years to come and we love you always.

So NOW, it is time to focus on the blessings at hand, and that is these 3 little "things".  They make life extremely FULL right now.  Full of chatter...with Griffin who never stops talking or asking questions and Sawyer who is just starting to talk (we love how he says, "oh no!"), full of chaos, full of food on the floor and dirt everywhere, full of little boy injuries, full of messes everywhere, full of giggles, full of snuggles, full of times we are really becoming a family...life is just very very FULL and we are blessed through it all to be living it.  After we said good bye to Maci I was so sad, yet felt a joy too because this life takes getting through the good and the bad together to build up & strengthen our relationships and I am so blessed to do life with my amazing husband.  Being with him on easy street and through rocky roads just makes me love him more and more.  And also each one of these little things has me amazed and in awe of God's plan that started on a semi blind date and now looks like this....

 

Wanna know the best thing about having 3 kids.  PERSPECTIVE.  We have it.  We aren't all worried over the little things and although we get stressed and feel overwhelmed, we know (or are at least more aware) "this too shall pass" and we will get through this stage and the next.  Someday we will sleep again...someday the frustrations of this phase will pass and be replaced by new ones but we know for now, to the best of our ability we gotta enjoy!

"Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom"

Psalm 90:12

Dear Crosbi Lucille,

Here you are at 1 month.  Can you believe how well you can hold your little head up already.  Your day is mostly sleep, eat, fuss & snuggle but the thing you do best is make everyone in our family smile.  We each love and adore you very much.  Just 1 month of you has us longing for the many months ahead to spend with you and trying to savor these sweet moments we have now.  You are eating great still and sleeping at night fairly good considering how new you are.  I love wearing you in your carrier and doing household work and taking you out and about.  You are such a hit everywhere we go!!  

Here's a little photo sequence captured by Ryan, poor Crozi:(...

Playing so nice on her blankie made by Great Grandma Lucille (who she is named after)

Then she got ahold of her own hair...

and this caused quite the tears:(

So that is about a month's worth of updates.  We're still kicking, it may not always be pretty but we are at least still going.  Hopefully this pic above is what our nights look like from here on out so we are closer to functioning regularly with each passing day!

Sweet dreams!!